Being a good Southern girl was all about what you did and
didn’t do. You did fry catfish in bacon
grease kept under the sink for God knows how long. You didn’t wear white shoes after Labor Day. You did say “bless her heart” when you really
meant “good riddance”. You didn’t kiss a
boy first. You did wait.
Oh you waited. You
waited at the end of the line while all the men and kids ate first. You waited for long hot summers to end. You waited for life to start in a tiny town
that time had appeared to have forgotten.
You waited to be kissed. You
waited to get married. You waited to
have children. Then you waited to greet death.
It was the hottest, driest summer on record, but that
morning there were clouds. Not ominous,
but promising. I could feel their
promise from the heels of my bare feet, traveling up to the pounding of my
waiting heart. I pushed the wild feeling
of yearning down, yearning to run, to scream and cry, to rush headlong into
life. I put on my dress and shoes and
went to meet Mama at the diner for lunch.
We were sitting in the window booth at the diner when the
thunder rumbled. The ice rattled in the
tea glasses. It was like the thunder
started a wave in me, a powerful churning wave.
I looked at the tea with its long spoon and tiny lemon wedge, heard Mama
talking about the ladies at prayer meeting, smelled the frying grease that
permeated the air and was hit by the ridiculousness of the small life I
led.
That’s when I saw him out of the window. I got up in the middle of Mama’s sentence,
left her sitting there with her mouth open in shock. By the time I made it across the diner and
opened the door, huge drops of rain were falling. They were the sort that drenched you to the
skin in only three drops. He saw me from
where he was, in the middle of the street.
He shrugged off his jacket in one smooth motion and draped it around my
shoulders saying, “Here, you’ll chill.”
Whatever declaration of ardor I intended to make left my mind completely
as I looked up into his endless blue eyes.
Instead, I grabbed him by the striped button down shirt and kissed
him. Kissed him like I wanted to be
kissed. Like I had waited to be
kissed.
I was done waiting.
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